Trauma- I don't want to hurt anymore
Everyone experiences trauma. Some more than others but it still causes endless pain. The thing is, the sudden onset of pain is trauma for your body but massively effects you psychologically.
When suddenly experiencing the endo pain it definitely scared me and still to this day I worry if the pain is going to continue and get just as bad. Don't get me wrong I still have the pain but I manage it better now and also it does not last as long as it did. However, as soon as I get some sort of pain or symptom I do go into a state of panic. This is completely normal and I know I have to work on myself so I understand its not going to be like before. But I also have so much support from my loved ones and the hospital. In addition a massive difference is the fact that I have now been diagnosed so there is no worrying on what could be wrong. this massively played on my mind when I was going from doctor to doctor. I have to learn to deal with it and make my mind understand that I can get through this.
When our bodies experience trauma, it affects us in many different ways and often later down the line, causing unexpected emotions. It can cause physical and emotional pain as well as flashbacks. Its been a year now since my pain started, I am now in a very different place but its still effects me as I know it will never fully go away. I am however, going to receive counselling sessions in which it will help me psychologically. It will be a group session which will also massively help me as it ensures me that I'm not alone. It is key to speak up because it is such a lonely illness and is often dismissed or not fully understood.
Through this state of trauma I massively recommend to get help, it doesn't make you weak it just simply helps you and allows you to either escape the dark place or stop yourself from falling back into it.
I don't want to go into all the trauma I've faced or am still going through, but it doesn't mean I don't talk to anyone. I am very vocal about it all I just am not ready to put it all online.
When suddenly experiencing the endo pain it definitely scared me and still to this day I worry if the pain is going to continue and get just as bad. Don't get me wrong I still have the pain but I manage it better now and also it does not last as long as it did. However, as soon as I get some sort of pain or symptom I do go into a state of panic. This is completely normal and I know I have to work on myself so I understand its not going to be like before. But I also have so much support from my loved ones and the hospital. In addition a massive difference is the fact that I have now been diagnosed so there is no worrying on what could be wrong. this massively played on my mind when I was going from doctor to doctor. I have to learn to deal with it and make my mind understand that I can get through this.
When our bodies experience trauma, it affects us in many different ways and often later down the line, causing unexpected emotions. It can cause physical and emotional pain as well as flashbacks. Its been a year now since my pain started, I am now in a very different place but its still effects me as I know it will never fully go away. I am however, going to receive counselling sessions in which it will help me psychologically. It will be a group session which will also massively help me as it ensures me that I'm not alone. It is key to speak up because it is such a lonely illness and is often dismissed or not fully understood.
Through this state of trauma I massively recommend to get help, it doesn't make you weak it just simply helps you and allows you to either escape the dark place or stop yourself from falling back into it.
I don't want to go into all the trauma I've faced or am still going through, but it doesn't mean I don't talk to anyone. I am very vocal about it all I just am not ready to put it all online.
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