Disassociated with my body// BINGE EATING DISORDER

 It is funny that after many years of living, i still feel disassociated with my own body. My YOYO health has certainly had a huge impact on it and i didn't fully realise. 

After i had a call with a psychologist, i learnt a lot about myself. And i have spoken to many people regarding my "issues" but how she worded it and how she spoke to me really clicked it in my brain. Something that i had been ignoring and relying on for years and years. Punishing myself without fully realising it or taking ownership. I learnt that i have a binge eating disorder and have had for years but never acknowledged it because i was so separate from my body. I have so many other issues which lead me to consciously ignore a crucial part. 

I am now on a weight loss journey and trying to heal my relationship with food, slowly but surely i am starting to see a change. Mental health has always played a massive part in all of this. I didn't realise how common eating disorders were until i started looking into it more. And that is why i have made the decision to carry on being so open and transparent. There will be moments where i fall back into my old ways but i have built up a number techniques now enabling me to accept and move on rather than punish myself further. 

This isn't linear. There will always be curveballs. But you know what thats ok. And even though i am starting yet another journey to better myself, knowing there will be down days, i know i can do it, i have come through so much already- thats what keeps me going. 

If anyone has any tips, tricks or just needs someone to talk to please reach out!! 

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